There is an unrest inside me. A deep need to scream out and lash out. But lash out at what? I have no idea.
This unrest, this constant anxiety is unsettling. It’s as if I’m waiting for something to happen. What that might be ? I don’t really know.
This unrest within, is like a powerful ticking bomb. It ignites at anything under the sun. But then, I stomp on it and it fizzles out. But it raises its head, every now and then, and before long, I know it will go off!!!.
And that is what I fear the most. The destruction will be catastrophic. Not in terms of monetary things, it’s gonna be a spew of words from my mouth which I will have no control over.
And words once spoken, cannot be taken back. So, I fear the worst. I don’t want this to happen.
Each day, I get up with a prayer on my lips, God please help me control my thoughts, my emotions, my unrest. Let the demon within me lie low and lay still. Give me the energy to override this unrest.
And then I realize, I’m not the only one with this unrest. Most of us today face this unrest, this deep disconnect.
Maybe, just maybe because we’ve lost the purpose of our being alive.
All we need to do- you and I together- is, to find ourselves once again. To find a purpose in our lives again.
Pick up a hobby, learn to play an instrument, start writing that book you always wanted to pen down, learn the Samba or Tango, you did say you wanted to…
For me, to tame my unrest, I’ve started writing…….
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